Our Symphony

via Daily Prompt: Symphony

 

“I dig you damn it!”, I remember you had grabbed my upper arm, and had yelled at me exasperated.

“I like you too “, I had blurted out.

Then after few years, when you had popped the question, I remember our battle.

“Do you really want to marry me?  I am warning you. I am a mess and loving me won’t be easy.”, I had whispered, though deep down I knew I would do anything to make us work.

“It is too late. I am irrevocably in love with you.Marry me.”, you had said with so much intensity, that it was easy for me to lock my doubts in a box and throw the key away.

Then came the worst.Or that is what I thought.

“Shit! We are too young.How could we be so careless?!” I had pounded your chest and pushed you across the room.

“We are in this together, doll.We will get through this” You had tried pacifying me by   putting on a brave face , when you were seconds away from cacking your pants.

And from there on, I realised that we were always in it together. We shared our roses and thorns.

So, today, after growing old together, as I lay my head on your chest and listen to your heart beat, I realise that it resembles a symphony. A symphony which is slowly fading , just like the white lilies on our kitchen table.And at this moment, I wish nothing but to be a part of your symphony.

Our symphony.

 

 

Shooing away the monotony

Are you questioning your existence more often?Do you spend every waking hour in self loathing and self pity?Do you spend hours dreaming about a happier life?
Wonder what has struck you?
You are simply a victim of monotony.
We all have our own fair amount of days where we are doomed by monotony.

Firstly,we need to understand  that it is okay.Not everyone of us can have a perfect life,like those Instagram personalities ,whose life seems to be a vacation on its own.*sigh*Wishful thinking.

The cure?Be reckless.Trust me, sometimes it is the ultimate hack to make things right,to make you forget and to bring back the spark in your life.Unless you are ready to waste your time waiting for some new hot dude or a girl like how the sappy sagas tell you,to spice up your monotonous story.If that is the case then all I can say is may the wait be worthwhile.
But for all the wise ones,what you truly need is to feel alive.Maybe again or maybe for the first time.

You need to feel that pumped up adrenaline rush which hits you so hard that it leaves you dizzy for hours.Do something so spontaneous and so uncalled for that your yesterday’s self would never even dare think about it in their wildest dream.
It can be any random thing you always wanted to do and which was in your bucket list,feeling deprived of your attention.

Wanted to always go on a solo trip to the mysterious country of Mongolia?Do it.Go watch a movie alone in theatre,learn a new language you have never heard of,shop till you drop,call a random number and just start a conversation and the list is endless.Do everything and anything to make your soul happy.
For once,think beyond the boundaries which society has thrust upon us.
Live.Love.Explore.Discover yourself and discover world.

Be like Nike.Just do it! 🙂

The conundrum

 

Was I a bit too over the top?I should have not said that. If I would have handled it that way, then the outcome would have been different.And the list is endless.

Some call it as the’ inner voice’ and many call it the ‘conscience’ .Ain’t these words a tad bit simple for such a complex phenomenon?
Imagine, something so confusing, something which eats you up,frustrates you,yet guides you,is summed up and termed just as conscience.
So what can we call it?

Personally,I would call it our conundrum moments.We all have our own personalized ‘connundrum moments’.

I know right!We are already surrounded by the hustle and bustle of our lives and to top it off we have one more voice demanding our undivided attention.It is something which will not leave you even if one fine day you end up going on a stranded island in search of nirvana.A bit scary,right?

These moments are those which help you self analyse and help you act in a certain way and look at things in a certain perspective.

It can be something as small as the inner turmoil you have after you fight with your partner or the reprimanding voice which makes you feel guilty for not offering water to the delivery guy who looked tired while delivering your much awaited mail.The constant battle with yourself before doing something big ,the  which you give yourself regularly,the way you console yourself after a life changing step,they all count.

A solution to tackle this?Simple. Embrace it.That is the only way to make peace with your self.Never forget that these conundrum moments are like the watchdog,they help you be the better version of yourself.
And who does not want to be their favourite version?!